Lately, I've been thinking a good bit about change. Partly the new year. Partly the new decade in my life. Partly the new size in my jeans. (tee-hee). Partly (or maybe mostly) the new level of irriation I have with my job most days.
I've been thinking of changing habits (cutting out soda, picking healthier snacks, somehow creating an extra 1.5-2 hours a day for exercise and the pre-post build up for that), changing jobs (maybe finding something else to do for now - to pay the bills for now that is), changing careers (ok, actually FINDING a career - hence the "for now" part of the above job lines), changing relationships (working on communicating my needs better rather than keeping quiet and expecting people to read my mind, being better about keeping in touch), changing my spending habits (Does anyone really NEED 10 tubes of Chapstick?!?), maybe even changing my weekends and evenings in the "going back to school" sort of way.
Generally speaking, I would describe myself as a change-embracer. Once a change is underway, I get EXCITED about it. I find all the good points and celebrate them! (Hate the move, but love the new place.) But here's what I've discovered in my recent move towards change. Although I adore new things, places, abilities, etc., I HATE getting the change started. Taking the first REAL STEP towards change is nearly impossible for me.
I would LOVE a new job once I had it in hand, but actually sending out resumes? YIKES!!! I will LOVE my new body once it gets here, but finding that extra time in my day without cutting my sleep time to below 5 hours - DAUNTING AT BEST!!! I would love relationships where I never thought twice about expressing my desires/needs, but actually getting up the nerve (and the clear thoughts) to say what's needed in the right moment - NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE for me! (This one isn't Drew-specific. I'm just a conflict-avoider in ALL relationships. Always have been.)
Right now, I feel kind of stuck. I see the change out there and know I can get excited about it once it's here, but taking that first step off the cliff - I'm just not quite there yet on some of this.
So how do you guys feel about change? Are you change-embracers? Change-avoiders? Change-enacters?
And what's the kick in the butt you need to make change happen?
Love & Shipoopies,